"When Tomorrow Starts Without Me.."

Today, May 21, 2014 marks the 2nd year Kibs has been gone from our lives. Ironically it both seems so long ago in time but still so fresh in feeling the loss. Not a day goes by when I do not think of my brother and tell him out loud I miss him...and that I wish he was still here with us. I guess up to now it is still hard for me to accept that he was taken away so early and his earthly vibrant life snuffed out so easily. And today marks another year for me to rewind again all these...the mind accepts but the heart that misses him will always grieve and hurt no matter what....

Our last picture together - 2009

I came across this wonderful poem.... and even if all my tomorrows start without him anymore,  Kibs will always be right here - in my Heart.  



"When Tomorrow Starts Without Me...."

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see.
If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me.
I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did today, 

While thinking of the many things we never got to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you..
And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too.. 

But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand..
An angel came and called my name and took me by the hand,
It seemed my place was ready - In Heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind, those things I dearly love..

But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye.
For all of life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, so much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you..
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad..
I thought of all the love we shared, and how much fun we had..
If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
I'd say goodbye, then kiss you ‘til I saw that special smile..
But then I fully realized, that it could never be,
'Cause emptiness and memories, would take the place of me.

And when I thought of all those things, I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow. .
But when I walked through Heaven's gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, From his great & golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity, and all I've promised you.

Today your life on Earth is past, but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,
and since each day is the same day, there's no longing for the past. .
But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true,
Though there were some times you did some things you shouldn't do. .
But you have been forgiven, and now at last you're free,
So come and take me by the hand, and share my life with me.." 

So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart, 
for every time you think of me, I'll be right there - in your Heart..